I feel blah. I can’t explain why. I don’t even know why. It’s just been a blah couple of days. I don’t really have anything new going on. All of my previous struggles are still the same, but I’m actually making progress on them. But I still feel blah. I’ve been running through the Rolodex, that is my life. How do I feel physically? Emotionally? Mentally? Spiritually? Everything is really just blah. I also realized that the status of the world and all the bad news is really crushing my spirit. I’ve found myself saying almost daily that this side of eternity really sucks. Then I noticed in one of my church small groups that everyone seemed to have things going on. Multiple prayer requests were needed. Daily for each person! We talked a bit about how it looks like the enemy is just attacking so many of us.
This led me to think about my spiritual life again. I looked at what has changed for me. I don’t really listen to praise and worship like I use to. Maybe a song here and there. (I actually don’t listen to music much at all, so this isn’t specific to a genre.) I use to could spend a day listening to sermons all day long. I would have a playlist of pastors and churches that I would make sure I caught there latest message each week. I can’t exactly remember the last time I did a fast. Personally, I’ve just been doing my Bible reading/studying and praying a bunch. And I know there are seasons where you will depend on one spiritual discipline heavier than the others, but I do believe that we should find a way to practice all of them. So I question if that is why I am feeling blah?
I know one thing that I am going to do is fast tomorrow. Honestly, I was thinking of fasting on Wednesdays (I think I have a friend who does this), and then I realized tomorrow IS Wednesday. I’m going to spend some time seeking God’s face and presence. Letting Him know my struggle and see what comes out of that time. I recommend that if you are feeling the same way that you start with picking a day to sit at the feet of Jesus and bring your thoughts and concerns to Him. I pray that God can heal you during this time!